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9 月後

I've reached a point in my life where I realize that all the things I've been through will always be a part of my life and my story. It often makes me sad and I feel very lonely. I've also realized that everything that happened to me regarding sex hurts so much that, a year after my breakup, the memories are slowly coming back in waves. I forgive myself, but there are dark moments in my life when I hate myself so much. That I wasn't strong enough to maintain my boundaries. I'm also often afraid now that men will no longer be interested in me once they find out about my story. I know this update isn't really powerful, but I need to share it with people who might understand how I feel. I wish you all the best and send you lots of hugs!

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I love you all out there! You are not alone! You are strong! The abuse is not your fault!

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Healing is to forgive yourself. Healing is to realize, that the abuse wasn‘t your fault at all. You are wonderful and nobody is allowed to treat you like shit.

I was in an abusive relationship for 12 years. I met him when I was fourteen and we came together when I was fifteen. He was nice and lovely and I fell in love with him. I never thought that he could have a dark side. After a few month I began to realize, that there is something inside him. When we had our first fight, he screamed with me and I had so much fear. He apologized and I forgived him. But: It didn‘t stopped. He was verbal abusive. He said that I am a whore. He made me feeling small and like I am the worst person in the world. He said, that I am a psycho. He said I am a joke. He said I am nothing. He said, that he has to talk and scream with me like this, because I don‘t understand his points otherwise. He began to destroy things like my watch or a necklace. The walls had holes and he often grabbed me at my shoulders very hard when he got angry. When I cried, he became angrier at all. I locked myself in the toilet because I had so much fear of him. He also pushed me at the asphalt when he was drunk sometimes. I had bruises. One time he choked me. I never told anybody what happend, because I always forgived him and felt so fucking guilty. I tried to left him, but he always said, that he will kill himself, when I go. I went to therapy but even there I was so ashamed, that I didn‘t talk about the abuse. After two years of therapy I got stronger and stronger. I was ready to talk to somebody about the things that happend to me and that I want to leave him. Suddenly I felt free and was ready to go. He always said, that he loves me and that I am the love of his life. It never was love. I realized that I was in an abusive relationship. There were verbal, emotional and physical abuse. I didn't imagine any of it. I wasn't crazy. Whoever is reading this and is in a similar situation: You are strong! You are intelligent! You are beautiful! You are a good person! You can trust yourself! You can talk to someone! You can do this! You can leave him! You are a wonderful human being! I love you all out there and send you hugs. We have to share our stories and we are allowed to share them. Together we can change something.

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